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Yeah. There was this stupid carnival and I ran away from the tent because someone had taken a video of me and Harry
well. you know.

and projected it up for everyone to see. It was humiliating, so I left. Something turned my insides into actual glass for me to choke on. It was a nightmare.

When I came back I was turned into that.

that's what happens when you die here? that's shitty. that's really fucking shitty. and then you turned into an italian slut, huh?

It was. It IS. Thank you.

Uh huh. I don't know if it'a worse that I was a whore or European.

and you can't even be mad at anyone about it either. nobody to blame. jesus. lol europeans aren't THAT bad you could've been like from trenton.

Yeah. When I was almost murdered during the wolf games, I could blame someone. I could channel that anger into something productive by finding the killers. But this is different. I don't know what to do with it.

I'm not far from Jersey, you know. Staten Island. At least originally.

the wolf games. that was where a bunch of people hunted each other, right? and you had to guess who it was?

[it sounds...familiar.]

you can't be angry at anyone, a lot of the time. i can't be angry at the stupid fucking house for giving me my baby back last month, then taking him again. sucks, doesn't it? i hate jersey.

Yeah. The one who tried to kill me is the only one that wasnt' caught.

You can be angry for that. It was cruel. The anger just won't do anything. It's just discouraging.

Can't say I spent much time there.

jeez, tim. this place just doesn't give you a break, huh? i'm tired of being angry. i'm just i already lost him once. that was more than enough. why a second time? it's boring. is new york really as cool as the movies make it seem? i've never been.

It hasn't been all torture. But it's been hard.

I don't know. I've heard it said that this place feeds on our misery somehow. I think all.of this has to have a point, I just wish I knew what.

My family's not exactly in the fun and exciting part of the city. It's a nice weekend outing. Really different from Washington.

oh yeah, don't you have like fourteen boyfriends? that makes sense, i guess. lottie said that kinda shit about the wilderness too. that we had to feed it. state? or dc?

Two, Shauna.

If it's true about the manor, it happens whether we like it or not.

DC. I was working on Capitol Hill.

more than me. that sucks. this place kinda sucks, doesn't it. oh. politics, yeah. we missed lewinsky, but thats the most exciting thing thats happened in DC in the 90s.

Are you interested in one?

[ Are you gay? ]

I've learned a lot, but I'm more than ready to go home.

I'm sure that's not true. From experience, I think there's plenty of worse things that didn't make the news.

not really? seems like a lot of work.

[get ambiguous answered!]

yeah? does that happen a lot here? i dunno, the president jizzing on an intern is kind of a big deal. sorry "allegedly".

It can be. Loving someone is rewarding, though.

Going home? I guess we don't know for sure where we go when we leave here.

I'd guess he was just the first to get caught.

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